This Email might be a little bit sorter than usual. We were sitting in the internet cafe and then there was a blackout. When the computer technician came and finally got the computers going again, our timers had still been running, so I didn't get to use the full 2 hours we are given. Sucks, but oh well.
This week has been kind of different. To be honest my companionship is kind of a poisonous relationship. I think us two being together is causing both of us to do things we wouldn't normally do. Whenever we get into a disagreement, which is way too often, my companion just shuts down and acts like he is ignoring me. That gets really annoying, especially with the frequency of how often he does that. I try and talk to him and solve our problems, but then he ignores me. When he does that it causes me to get angrier...
...He has called me: "You know, you are like Satan" and... (Added by Alayna: other mean things.)
It honestly would be funny those things that he has called me if I wasn't so angry with him. On Friday we got in an argument about scheduling in the morning. He felt like his plan was better, and when I suggested another way he got all offended. So the rest of Friday we just sat around the apartment because we were too mad at each other to do anything, so we ended up not doing any work. I am really embarrassed about that. I should have been the bigger man and said: "Let's go out and do something", but we didn't even talk to each other the rest of the day. When the assistants got home that night they knew something was up between us, and ended up getting really mad at both of us saying that we should be ashamed for just taking the day off today.
We have a meeting right in the morning with President Hiatt. Sadly this is not the first meeting we have had about our companionship. He talked to us both individually about what we can do and how we can solve this. He has said that he loves us too much to split us though.
(Added by Alayna: This is the hardest email I've ever read! It didn't come in until late because of the power outage, so we didn't get a chance to encourage him or anything. I also wanted SO BADLY to fix it. It is so hard to trust the process and leave things in the mission president and the Lord's hands! I knew how much fire Frasier had when he left and how hard he wanted to work. So, I can't imagine how frustrating this has been for him. He left his home, family, friends, language, familiar food, entertainment, running etc. behind and was SO EXCITED! Then to have such a hard first go at things, was frustrating for EVERYONE (me included)! But I also know that this experience is what will refine him and make him a more patient, loving, gentle person and a better missionary and man! Anyway, last week was ROUGH! We said lots of prayers for Frasier AND his companion. Frasier didn't want any blog readers to get the wrong impression about him or about his companion. His companion is a good kid, a convert without family members who are members, and he is figuring out being a member and a missionary too.)
The rest of Saturday we went out teaching and it was normal.
Sunday Elder Uy was really sick with asthma or something. He went to get some medicine and then came back, but that didn't really help. He was asleep almost all day. But his companion needed to go to church so that they could account for all the investigators that went to church, and so did someone from my companionship. Because I still don't know what I'm doing I got selected as the one to stay home. It was nice though because I just spent all day watching different church videos that we have. The other elders went out teaching, to church, and then teaching some more and I just got to sit home all day.
All in all, I didn't do a ton of stuff these past few days. I'm still trying to get the hang of everything and not get too down on myself, as well as deal with my companion. Keep me in your prayers.
I don't know if you can tell by the tone of this email, but I'm a little bit stressed right now. Sorry. Next week will be better.
Forever and a day, Love Elder Williamson!
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